humans are always not satisfied with what they have including me.... especially being a girl, you dream and admire a lot of materialistic things around you and wish that you get every single one of them. as a girl i have a lot of things that i really want in my life... but compared to my "materialistic list" i really want to achieve my own desires ...1. my " DREAM JOB" to come true... if you're not rich its pretty hard to achieve what you want thats the situation i'm tangled in now if some generous person could just give me rm300 000 ahhh my problems are solved. but who could be that generous in life huh?
2.i must pass my coming exams with flying colours. i burnt my fingers once and i shall not burn it twice. i'm gonna make sure i put my heart and soul into it and excel with fantastic results.
3. i hate competition but if you want me to compete then its war! by instigation i shall do whatever ( but it has to be in the good way) to beat you in my life!
4. this may sound absurd but now i really wish i had a twin a close twin. i'm really suffering from a lot of depression and i need support. a 3rd person doesn't understand the situation i'm in. but if it is a person who is undergoing the same situation with you could understand you better. i really dont know what to do at this moment. i feel lost. its like I've lost my backbone.
5. i want family love. i have got it from everyone but except one person in my life.... its not the pampering and all but a bit of affection at least to know that you care for me would be just satisfying.... and this is really depressing me. if i had lost you i wouldn't have felt it that much but you exist and i envy everyone who has you. i just wish you could read this. ( i'm not in love or anything with a guy or what thats sheer nonsense note the point family member and i wont fall in love with any stupid person under the sun .falling in love is stupid according to me)
i know its impossible. it should be a miracle for this to occur. but i cant keep it in my heart anymore i need to pour it out. but no matter what i shall battle against it and try my best to achieve what i desire! i shall not give up...
